I am not built for this

Since becoming a mother almost 18 years ago, my heart has, figuratively speaking, been in our son's hands. Until the beginning of April this year, he took really good care of it, but since he got a girlfriend, he has become very reckless with my heart.

I know the goal of raising your child is for them to become independent and fully functioning people in society, but it breaks my heart to think that soon he won't need me at all. The paradox of motherhood is that you're raising the one person you can't live without, to be able to live without you.

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There is nothing more to say

For the second month in a row, we miss the monthly target.

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This is almost a form of self-torture

Having to compile charts that clearly show that we missed another monthly target is brutal since I literally hate losing. To top it all off, all preliminary numbers show that June 2025 will perform even worse than the forecast.

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I have to be happy with the wins I get

Even though the match against 2019 is lost, I have not given up hope that 2025 will surpass 2024.

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The exchange rate is a tough opponent

My logical self knows that 2025 has already lost to 2019 even though we have so far reinvested all dividends paid as well as both mine and the world's most perfect husband's tax refund.

Despite this knowledge I can't turn off my "game on" mode which can be quite tiring sometimes, especially when I cannot influence the outcome, such as exchange rates. Since the beginning of the year, the Swedish krona has strengthened by 16.77% against the US dollar, according to figures from Bloomberg.

It will take a small miracle in the second half of 2025 for my calculations to come true.

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